"Let the morning bring me word of your unfailing love, for I have put my trust in you. Show me the way I should go, for to you I entrust my life." Psalm 143:8
This is an open letter to you... and to me. It is an open letter to anyone who has ever felt overwhelmed or disheartened. It's an open letter to everyone who has ever wondered if what they do or say or feel has any importance or impact. This letter is written to anyone who has felt alone or concerned or frustrated or scared... And maybe still does. It is a letter to remind you that you are seen. You are heard. You are important and you matter.
Dearest One,
I hope this letter finds you well. I know that you have been struggling and I thought that this note might be the balm that your heart needs right now.
As you know, I have been keeping my eye on you. I was watching when you faced all those difficult choices you have made this year. I remember when you lost sleep over big decisions. I witnessed your disappointment when you tried to share your heart and it was rejected.
I heard your concerns as you processed your emotions. I saw your tears and your frustration. I observed your heartbreak when things didn’t go as you had planned. You have worked hard and I see all the effort you have made. I have seen every time you learned and changed through the circumstances that you have been faced with.
Watching your journey has been hard. There were times I wanted to jump in and save the day. There were times when I could see you make a decision that was going to impact you in a way that you didn’t expect. I knew that there were people who didn’t have your best interests at heart and there were people whose agenda you couldn’t fulfill.
However, through your trials and falls, I never stopped believing in you and have always been proud of who you were, who you are. You have followed your convictions. You have had good intentions. Your focus was on what you believed to be true and good. And that always made me smile. I have been honored to know you and to be a part of your world.
I know there are people who have been the cause of some of your concern. This is because relationship is so very important to you. You care deeply and earnestly for those individuals in your life. Sometimes, I'm sure, it felt like a weakness when you put others first or put your belief in someone and then they let you down. Observing all that you have encountered, I wanted to share this thought with you. In my humble opinion, loving others is not a weakness. Loving others is bravery… Trusting someone is not a character flaw. Trust is a necessary gift.
You were created with these beautiful emotions: love and trust. Somewhere along the way, you were deceived into believing that love and trust make you vulnerable and that vulnerability shows weakness. But the truth is without vulnerability we would not have relationship and relationship is good, so therefore, vulnerability is good.
I would also argue that vulnerability makes us strong. Love and trust make you strong. These things make you a fully formed human being. When love and trust are misused, twisted, abused, exploited or squandered, we begin to hold them closer and then only give those emotions away to those who “earn” them. We become stingy. This is a form of self-protection, but it is also a form of self-harm. As we withhold love and trust, those emotions become atrophied. Relationship is hindered. When love and trust are withheld, love and trust also become withheld from us. It is a vicious cycle.
But there is hope! There is always hope!
You can heal the fissure that has caused the disconnect. It's up to you. You are in control!
A severe break will take time to heal, but it's not impossible. You must make the choice to heal. You must take the steps and seek out what will make you whole. It is a unique but important journey. All it takes is bravery and strength...
When you are brave and strong, you won't have to be afraid anymore. The good news is, you have already proven that you are brave and strong! Look at all you have survived! And when you’re ready, when you’ve done the work, you will be open to all that’s good and beautiful. To find healing is to find beauty. To find beauty is to love again; trust again. Do the work. Trust the process. Believe in yourself. You are worth it.
And never forget… I know you can do it. I’m proud of you.
With most sincere gratitude,
Me
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