“...I have loved you with an everlasting love; I have drawn you with unfailing kindness.” Jeremiah 31:3
Hey… God?
Yes.
I need to talk to you about something.
I’m here.
Actually, I have a lot to say.
I’m listening.
It seems like lately everything has changed.
Everything?
Well… maybe not everything... But a lot of things... And I’m struggling with the way things are now. I liked things the way they were. You know?
Yes, I know.
And things have been pretty hard for me lately. I thought I was happy before things changed. Now, I’m having a hard time finding any happiness. I guess I don’t understand why things had to change and why they couldn’t stay the same… I know you have your reasons.
Yes, I do.
I try to be faithful and patient...
Yes, you do try.
But I fail… a lot.
I know.
My heart wants to do what’s right.
I know.
But my humanity gets in the way sometimes.
I know that, too.
I want to do what you ask of me.
That’s why you’re one of my favorites.
I didn’t think you had favorites.
I don’t.
But I’m one of your favorites?
Yes.
Are we all your favorites?
Yes.
And you want what’s best for each of us? Including me?
Yes.
So, then, I don’t understand why everything is so hard for me. It is like what I do doesn’t matter. It’s like I have been forgotten about.
I will never forget you.
It feels like when I look for you… sometimes… it’s like you're not there. I’m all alone.
I am always with you.
It feels like you are so far away… so distant. I know that is not your character, but I seem to be having trouble finding hope… finding grace… finding you.
I have always been here.
Every day I feel lost… and rejected… and afraid… and upset… and lonely.
I made your emotions and I created you to feel feelings.
Are you angry with me?
No.
Why not?
Because you are my child.
I feel unloved… unlovable.
I love you with an everlasting love.
Why?
Because you are my child.
Have you always loved me?
Yes.
Will you always love me?
Yes.
Even when I doubt?
Even when you doubt.
Even when I’m angry that everything has changed.
Yes, even then. Nothing can separate you from my love.
Nothing?
Nothing.
…Thanks.
You’re welcome.
I’m glad we had this talk.
Me too.
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